A Rough Week

It’s 2:00 AM Sunday morning, and I got home from the hospital around 8PM last night. (Saturday). No, it wasn’t for Kimmie. It was me. The journey to where I’m at is strange, for the last couple weeks I’ve been in deep prayer about a few things that has been grieving my soul, low and behold, Darren Gallaher ‘s sermon last Sunday morning was on, are you ready…… being grieved in your spirit! Which is ok, folks, righteous grieving, and righteous anger is ok, Jesus had both! Anyway, on Sunday night, we had musical guests, Kevin, Kim, and Doyle, and a fellowship dinner. During the dinner, I broke a tooth, and it got caught in my throat and I was gagging, and it finally broke loose. I’ll tell ya, it was scary! Didn’t give it much thought after that. I never realized at this point that God was going to be answering and guiding me through my prayers. I woke up Monday, feeling bad, sweats, fever, chills. The days following kept getting worse, the sweats, fever, chills, being a wake only long enough to get a drink of water, and I was having some vivid dreams. I’ll be writing about those dreams if it’s God’s Will for me to share. I got so bad that Kimmie and my daughter took me to the ER. After many tests, they found the culprit…. I have a bacterial infection that spread through my body, which began with the tooth being broke. A tooth!  I’m on an aggressive treatment plan and will be ok in a couple of three weeks! Folks, I’ve been serving Jesus many years in every way that a man can, but what God revealed about my life was …. I gave up on my 1st love, I gave up that desire and passion that God put in my heart, I gave up on what God called me to do years ago. Why!…. I don’t know, but I do know that the gifts and the calling of God are irrevocable. Paul tells us that somewhere in Romans, I just don’t remember where. God never withdraws them once they are given, and He does not change His mind about those to whom He had called.

What is my 1st love, my passion, my desire, my calling? If you really know me….. you know the answer!

Where will God send me? I don’t know, I might be there already. I’ll find out when God reveals that to me!